1950 First Portland
Tape 4 Side 2
By Joel Goldsmith
Part 3 of 6
Now then, in addition to this, we have our periods of silent meditation, which takes us a step beyond even this conscious recognition. And the purpose of the meditation is this: When we are very still and silent inside, something happens: a feeling comes to us, an awareness of the Presence, a click, I call it, or release; and when that happens, we know the contact has been made. God is on the field and all is well.
Scripture tells us this: Thou will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on Thee. Stayed on Thee. The 91st Psalm tells us that no evil will come nigh our dwelling place. It tells us at great length about all the harm that will not come to us, and very often we say, “Ah yes, but it isn’t true. Look at the harm, look at the evil that has come to us and oft times that is still coming to us.” and then when we search for the answer, we find it in the very first verse of the 91st Psalm: He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High, none of these evils will befall him, nor will they come nigh his dwelling place. Who? He that dwelleth…. He that lives and moves and has his being in this God consciousness; who remains there; who keeps his mind stayed on God.
Why it very definitely says that a thousand will fall at your left and ten thousand at your right. It doesn’t promise immunity to everybody. It doesn’t say that everybody is going to be protected. As a matter of fact, out of eleven thousand and one people that it mentions, only one is going to be protected. And that one is he that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High; he that lives and moves and has his being in this God consciousness; he who keeps his mind stayed on God; he who prays without ceasing.
My interpretation of those passages means that … not that we should neglect our work, oh, no. We can go right on with our work while blinking our eyes and saying, “Thank you Father.” We can go right on and do every bit of work necessary for us to do and still just realize as we go through a door that the divine Presence goes before me. As a matter of fact, it is only the first two or three months that we have to do this consciously; that we have to remember to do it. As a matter of fact, the first week or two, we forget it more than we remember it, and every time we forget it, we have to do it right where we are when we do remember it. And so within two or three weeks we train ourselves so that we never see a door without getting a guilty conscience. And we never see a piece of food or a dollar bill without a little guilty conscience until we have uttered our, “Thank you Father.” Then it isn’t more than four, five, six, seven, eight weeks and it’s so automatic that instead of going through the process of thinking something, we just smile a little bit, as much as to give a secret password. That smile is our password. That smile is our recognition that we know the Father goes before us; that the Father walks beside us; that the Father comes behind us as a rear guard.
When all of this happens, we begin to understand some of the scripture that up to now has been very, very strange to us. Such passages as: I will never leave thee nor forsake thee; If you walk through the waters, you will not drown; If you go through the fire, the flames will not kindle upon you; Fear not, I am with thee. You know, it seems very, very strange that so much evil has befallen us in our lives with those passages of scripture; passages which seem to make a liar out of scripture. But scripture doesn’t lie. The thing there that causes our distress is this: we don’t know what that I means. We don’t know who that I is, and therefore, we do not know on whom to place our reliance. The strangest thing in the world that ever came into my experience was when I discovered who and where and what this I is that will never leave me nor forsake me; that will be with me unto the end of the world. Lo, I am with you since before Abraham was, and lo, I will be with you unto the end of the world, and do you know it came to me as a shock to find out that I am that I. I am the I that will be with me. I am the I that will never leave me nor forsake me. Isn’t it a strange thing that I was looking all over the world, like Moses; looking all over until it dawned one day, “Why I am that I am that is I am-ing with me.
It’s a strange thing. Let’s see if you’ve ever realized what this I is that will never leave you. Let us all say it together: the word I. “I.” You wouldn’t believe it would you? That’s the Fellow that never leaves you nor forsakes you. It was there when you were born, and if you ever decide to die, it’ll be there watching you go through. Did you ever stop to realize that that’s the only I in the world that you can’t get away from? Go to Europe to get away from your troubles and see if you can leave I behind you. The only thing is this, that we have believed that that I is a fellow named Joel, or a woman named Mary, or some other male name or female name; whereas that I that we just voiced—let’s voice it: “I, I.” That I is God. Believe it or not, that I is God. And that is the only I there is in the world that will never leave you nor forsake you. That I will be with you unto the end of the world. That I was the individual that looked through your eyes at twelve years of age, sixteen years of age, thirty years of age, and is looking through now regardless of what your age. It’s the same I. It hasn’t changed; it hasn’t aged; it’s just learned a lot more about human life. It hasn’t learned enough yet about spiritual life to know that it is God. But that’s the work we are engaged in now: Learning that that I at the center of your being is God, and it is closer to you than breathing, and nearer than hands and feet, the poet told us.
Now tell me something other than that I that is closer to you than breathing, and nearer than hands and feet. There isn’t anything, is there? Only I am closer to me than breathing and nearer than hands and feet. I am He. Hast thou been with me so long Phillip, and hath not known Thou seest me, thou seest the Father that sent me, for I and the Father are one. You see how we’ve stumbled around? Stumbled around, probably looking for some God to look down on us and take care of us and ignoring the one and only true God beside whom there is none else. Beside me, Isaiah said, there is no other. I am He. I in the midst of thee am He. Lo, I am with you always. And the Father says, “Son, thou are ever with me and all that I have, all that I have—say it: “I, I.” All that I have is thine.
End Part 3