1959 London Closed Class
Tape 274, Side 1
The “I” Within
By Joel Goldsmith
Part 2 of 4
Now, how do we open out a way for infinite wisdom, eternal life, divine love to flow out from us? The way in which we start is to acknowledge that it is there – the kingdom of God is within ourselves; therefore, we are not to attempt to get, obtain, achieve from without; we are to center our attention on bringing it forth or, rather, letting it escape from within our own being. Then, every time that we close our eyes, even if it is for fifteen seconds, and acknowledge “The kingdom of God is within me. Speak Lord. Let it flow,” and then return to our work whatever its nature – whether it’s housekeeping, whether it is music, art, invention, science, government – return and be active in whatever work we have been given to do today.
We have no thought about tomorrow; we are not to take thought for tomorrow; or what we shall eat or drink or wherewithal we shall be clothed. All we are called upon to do is to live in this moment; and to live in the assurance that full Christhood, full spiritual being is established within us, and that within us is the bread, the meat, the wine, the water – everything – the resurrection, life eternal, everything of which we shall have need – not only for the rest of our dayson earth but for all of our days unto kingdom come.
This, you see, is making a transition from the ordinary sense of human life in which we look to others for our good; we look to husbands or wives or children or parents; we look to investments; and in this last decade it has become fashionable to look to the government; whereas in the spiritual life, we are taught to look within ourselves, and let God’s grace flow out from us.
Now, no one can be expected to demonstrate beyond the capacity they have attained; therefore, we do not try to walk on the waters until we have been given an inner assurance that we may attempt it. We do not start with: “Well I will go out and run up a lot of bills because now God within me is going to meet them.” No, rather, rather open out a way and let the money flow in first, and then go out and spend it. Be assured of each step of your demonstration as you go along . . . Oh, if the still small voice tells you to take a step, which you at the moment cannot humanly see as right, you can afford to forget your human thought about it, and follow the direction that you receive from within.
The Infinite Way was founded on that. At every step, the still small voice directed the next step – a step which did not seem humanly reasonable or possible; but it was accomplished. But that was only after the contact within was so certain that there never was a question when the voice spoke, it was the voice; and when It spoke, It accomplished that which It sent me out to do. It never left me with the responsibility of doing something. It performed that which It gave me to do. So the time does come when you need take no thought for what the appearances testify to, but just obey that still small voice.
Now, at first it may appear to you that this “oft turning within” is not producing any effect. Well, that’s why I can’t play piano. I started to take lessons and after playing scales for a year, I couldn’t notice that I was able to play piano so I stopped taking lessons. If only I had continued a few more years, just think – by now I might be in vaudeville.
You see, as we turn to the spiritual life, it differs so completely from our human experience that you are really setting out on an uncharted sea. Not that others haven’t been there before you, but that you cannot go by their maps; you have to have your own experience, and therefore you have to walk slowly, move forward slowly and patiently.
Above all things, from this moment on we must never declare that anything is beyond our ability; we must not accept any sense of limitation; we must not accept the belief that any good is beyond our capacity or reach, or that any heights are too high to attain, for there are no limits to the I which I am after I have made contact with It. It becomes literally true that I live yet not I; Christ, the infinite, the unlimited, the unbounded, the unfettered lives my life.
Now, once you start on this path, you must take into the silence with you a word which in the human scene is not understood, and which can only be revealed to you – the meaning of it can only be revealed to you from within yourself. It is for this reason that we must not use this word in the connection I’m going to give it to you, outwardly or openly. We must use it as the Hebrews taught in the very earliest days of their experience – silently, secretly, sacredly. And then when its meaning has been made clear to us, we will understand why we never can voice it in this way, except within ourselves.
The word is I. What follows is the absolute truth about the I that I am. If I were to say this about Joel, I would be speaking a lie, but I can speak it about the Ithat I am; the I that I really am; the I which is one with God. This I that I am in the depths of my inner being, this I is the bread, the wine, the meat, the water, the resurrection unto me eternally. Therefore, anything in all of this world of which I may ever seem to have need is already established in the I that I am; and I need not look outside to man whose breath is in his nostril, or to princes. I can place entire faith, confidence, reliance, assurance on this truth. I embody within myself infinity. All that the Father hath is embodied in the I that I am. I am ever with the Father and, therefore, all that the Father hath is mine – embodied within me, embodied in the very I that Iam, for I and the Father are one. As long as Joel abides in this truth, he is fed, clothed, housed, prospered, completed, perfected by the I that I am.
Now Joel and I are one, but I is greater than Joel; therefore Joel of himself is nothing, but by relationship to the I that is within me, Joel has access to all that the Father hath, for this I and the Father are one – and not two. This I and the Father are one and not two. Therefore, though Joel can of himself do nothing, the I that I am doeth the works. God presence, God power – this is the substance of individual you and me. And wherever I have used the name Joel, you may use your own name and realize this: You Mary, you William, you Robert and the Father are one; and I in the midst of thee am mighty. That I which you declare, that I in the midst of you is mighty.
In proportion as you understand that I and the Father are one, in that proportion do you understand that all that the Father hath is mine. The mind of God is mine; the life of God is my life; the soul of God is my only soul; there can only be one Spirit, one life, one soul, and that is mine; that is yours. Wherever the word I can be voiced, that I is consciously one with the Spirit which is God – the soul, the life, the substance, the wisdom, the power, the dominion.
In that way we were taught in Genesis that we were given dominion over the earth, the waters, the sky, and all that is therein. We were not given that dominion as of ourselves, but by virtue of the I that Iam, the I that is within me, the I that constitutes my individual being. That is why, then, Joel can rest as if he were a piece of ice floating on the water and let the water move him, let the water become substance of his being, activity, quality, and quantity.
As we realize this, and we learn to sit in the morning in our period of quiet, you can now see the purpose of your meditation. As you are sitting for your first meditation in the morning, you are realizing that:
God has made this day, God has perfected it, God has decreed its activity, and the Father within you is the law and the substance and the activity of this day and of all of your life during this day.
And so you are now receptive to Its grace.
Thy grace is my sufficiency in all things; Thy grace, “closer to me than breathing, nearer than hands and feet;” Thy presence goes before me; Thy presence is with me. All that Thou art, I am. Thy will be done in me today; Thy grace is my sufficiency today; Thy presence is my assurance.
And now to be sure that I love my neighbor as myself, this is the truth also about my neighbor – my close by neighbor, my far distant neighbor, my friendly neighbor, and my enemy neighbor – this is a universal truth.
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