Dilemma of Escape

As a human being in a spiritual program you are caught in your untruth and you are a ware of it. You are faced with a dilemma of escape.

I want to be happy, but I can’t find happiness here. I feel pain and sickness no matter what I do. I don’t know how to change that. I lose things I love. But I read somewhere that there is Oneness. I feel lonely and spiritual scripture tells me God is with me. I know there is a Still Small Voice and yet I feel completely lost. Is there something wrong with me?

Is my spiritual program working?

Who hasn’t raised that question. Did you get an answer? What happens in my experience of being in a spiritual program? I certainly discover that I can’t evaluate my process, trusting on my ideas about my self. It is like this: I can’t see my self in it’s totality. What is in the way? In fact the only thing that is in the way is your idea about yourself. You base your ideas about yourself as a blockage to release your self made identity as a perceptual human identity. What you do is using your spiritual program to attack yourself. Now what?

Did I accept the fundamental premise?

In a Course in Miracles the book starts with this:

Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exist. Herein lies the peace of God

The opposite of love is fear, but what is all-encompassing can have no opposite

One thing you can consider is this: do I accept the premisses above? If yes I am ready to start doing the Course in Miracles. If no, come back to this when you see you are caught in a dilemma of escape.