Living the Inner Life 3/4

It is all right if you start this with a half of a second, or a full second, it is sufficient. Because, if you have enough of these periods, and come to this moment of listening. Even though it can last only a half a second or a second, you will find that eventually of its own accord it will stretch itself out into two seconds, three seconds, and ultimately a whole minute. No one needs any more than that.

Because, I know, I am knowing, I am bearing witness that right now within me, the grace of God is functioning, because I and the Father are one, and all that the Father hath is mine, and it is God’s pleasure to give me the kingdom. Therefore His spiritual love is fulfilling me, His spiritual grace is guiding and directing me, His spiritual grace is the meat and the wine and the water within me. And you see this is called mystically: living the life of prayer, living the life of contemplation, the contemplative life. It is also called communion…I am communing with the Spirit within me.

Ah, but at this moment, I-Joel am playing the major part in the communion. It is as if I were priming the pump, by these reminders of truth, remembrances of truth, statements of truth.

But then with this understanding established in me, each day I come to the second part of the contemplative life—the part of communion, in which I now turn within: “Father, speak, Thy servant heareth.” Now, I’m listening for Thy voice. And then, it is in this part of the meditation, contemplation, in which we take the listening attitude. We stop all thoughts, and listen.

It is all right if you start this with a half of a second, or a full second, it is sufficient. Because, if you have enough of these periods, and come to this moment of listening. Even though it can last only a half a second or a second, you will find that eventually of its own accord it will stretch itself out into two seconds, three seconds, and ultimately a whole minute. No one needs any more than that.

There will be occasions when for some special reason, we may be enabled to be in that listening attitude for minutes and minutes and minutes. But that is because God has created the occasion, and God has made it possible for us to relax for that length of time in order to fulfill whatever it is that God is imparting to us.

But ordinarily speaking, anyone that can be still and listen for one minute, and can repeat this at will, as many times a day as they wish, will find that they have been fulfilled, that their life begins to take on an entirely different nature.

Now, this doesn’t mean that right from the beginning, your life is going to take on the nature of sitting on cloud nine, and everything is going to be harmony, and peace, and love, because this is not true. I would be misleading you, if I gave you any such promise or assurance, because the Master did not hesitate to say: “I am come to, not to bring peace, but a sword; I am not come to bring peace to you, but a sword.” And by this he meant, eventually we are not going to know human good at all, nor experience it. Our good is of a spiritual nature; an entirely different nature than just having a doubled income, or a perfect heart, or even a perfect body.

No. In the beginning of our experience it is true that our health improves, our sense of supply improves. It isn’t always that our income increases. It is that a lot of the money that we have spent for unnecessary or foolish or wasteful things is no longer spent that way, and we do have more money available for the real, necessary things of human experience. In other words, less of our money goes into waste products, and more of it into the good things.

Now, we do find an improved health, improved supply, in some ways improved human relationships. But, it is likewise true, that we lose a great many of our friends, and we lose some of the members of our family. Because, we cannot expect because God has opened us to this way of life, that it likewise will open them. And if they will not be opened to it, gradually there will be a falling away. And that is a period for many people, that is unpleasant, very unpleasant, because, humanly we love our friends, we love our relatives. But when our way of life is no longer their way of life, there does come a separation.

And this is one of the ways. Well, the Master described it, “Unless you’re willing to leave mother, brother, sister, father, for my sake.” And, it doesn’t mean desert them, but it does mean a difference in relationship.

Then in the same way, humanly we have built up ideas as to how our supply should come, or where we would like to live, or what we would like to do. But once the Spirit of God begins to take hold of us, It begins to work out Its plan in us. It does not work to fulfill our plan or our desires. And if anyone thinks that God is for the purpose of serving our human will, they will soon learn through this work, that it is not true. God is not meant to fulfill our human desires. Man was created to show forth God’s will, God’s plan, God’s life.

Now humanly, the race is not doing that. That is why the race is at war with itself. That is why the race is at war with each other. Because, it is set on fulfilling its own desires, its own will, its own way. And of course, there is no God’s grace in that experience to bring to fruition.

Spiritual fruition can only come, as we surrender our will, our desire, and in these periods of meditation, be very sure:

Thy will be done in me. I am not trying to tell God how I want my life lived, or what I want God to do. I am submitting myself in meditation, to God’s will, God’s way, God’s plan that I may be an instrument through which God’s plan on earth may be fulfilled.

If that means eventually giving up my business, that’s the way it has to be. If that means eventually living some other place, that is the way it has to be. I am not going to move, I am not going to give up anything. I am submitting myself to God, to let God move me as God will. I was not placed on earth for any other reason than to be an instrument through which God’s grace, and God’s will, and God’s plan might be fulfilled on earth.

But humanly, we are not doing this. And it is for this reason that we are now returning to the Father’s house. We have been prodigals, with a will of our own, a desire of our own, a hope of our own, and we are returning to our Father’s house. “Nevertheless Father, not my will be done, but Thy will be done through me.”

The earth is the Lord’s and the fullness thereof, but Son, all that I have is thine—for sharing. For we are all children of the one Father; we are all brothers and sisters in Christ of the household of God. And what belongs to one of us belongs to all of us. Not through any Communistic system of dividing, but through the spiritual system of multiplying.

There is no need to divide. The Master taught us the law of spiritual multiplication, not division. At no time in his ministry did he divide, always he brought forth multiplication of the loaves, and of the fishes, and so do we, so do we. We share, but not from any system of believing that what is humanly mine is thine, but from the spiritual grace of love, through love we share with each other. But only because we know the law of multiplication that never ends.

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